I love making food but I hate eating it, I've looked at food and hated myself for it, I've been criticized by my mother about my weight for years, I wear oversized hoodies, my mother hated that so she would tell me to take them off, then proceeded to call me fat and that I needed to lose weight, I will never forgive her for that but I've learned to not listen to her and be happy with myself, I have a long way till I can be confident with my weight or my clothes but I'm working on it and knowing that I'm not alone, somehow makes it a little bit easier. For anybody who is reading this, you are the most beautiful/handsome person, do not listen to people who put u down, they do not deserve the attention. Thank you got reading.đ¤
I remember the first time i felt fat was when i was 4 and i began taking things seriously when i was around 8. I'd always been told that i was so big– looking back now though, i really wasnt. I come from a country where most people are kinda small anyways so by their standard i was "fat"— but regardless of all that, id always been very self- conscious of my image and evrr since then, i'd always thought abt every bite i took thinking that id be the only one gaining weight while everyone else would be fine because thats just thr way things are. Now that im a bit morr aware of these lines of thoughts, im starting to improve a bit. I dont dislike myself as much anymore and im trying to ig "fix" my relationship with food?
I remember when I would be forced to eat by my father and so during school breaks where he would be at work and let's us make our own dinners I just wouldn't eat for days because I told myself I didn't deserve it until my sister would make me eat. I always thought she was just being mean and antagonizing me but when I learned what an e.d was I started to become more close to her
Iâm twelve years old and Iâve been struggling with food for as long as I can remember. My brother could eat anything and everything but he was always and is still always skinny. Im too scared to look at my weight on a scale and I feel horrible when I eat. I hate my body and I hate that I hate it. I feel guilty for eating too much but then I feel guilty when I donât eat.
I was sick for 2 yrs, I felt like I was dying everyday. It was like I had the stomach flu for two year straight. I lost 60lbs, I kid you not, several people have said âwell at least thereâs thatâ đł Id really rather be fat than feel like I was literally on my death bed.
I don't have e.d.but due to medical problems(gallbladder disease,gallstones) i had to change my diet.had my gallbladder removed 3 years and change ago.kept up the diet change.hubby and i.are about 70% plant based.we do eat dairy,but limited amounts.limited processed processed foods. Very limited sugars.
This is the difference between people like âthe vegan teacherâ looking at other peoples videos and telling them that their âbadâ or â wrongâ for their dietary choices. The way the Vegan Teacher acts, telling people what to eat is wrong in so many ways. For example, itâs NOT okay to make a video about âif it was good or badâ that 100âs of people died in 9/11 just because their were vegan or not. You should not shame people just because of what they choose to eat. That Korean Vegan, talks about her personal feelings, opinions, and experiences that she has been through or has. She talks about how being vegan changed her life, not talking about others dietary choices or just telling people that their âwrongâ or âdisgustingâ. That Korean teacher doesnât try to force people to be vegan by likes on a dumb video. She just talks about her feelings, experiences, opinions, and unique culture in her Korean food. She make videos about vegan substitutes. That Korean vegan doesnât need to make some silly songs about being vegan, because she can just talk about being vegan in a nice and encouraging way instead of trying to force it down on someone. Thank you that Korean vegan. This world NEEDS more people like you that can talk about serious topics in ways that arenât forceful or mean. I greatly appreciate how you talk about serious topics in a nice way.đâĽď¸
âBeing a vegan makes it ok that Iâm disgustingâ. Wow now I understand why so many vegans are so hateful towards others, theyâre literally struggling to hold themselves together.
Damn, this makes me realise how lucky I am to have never experienced what it is to have eating disorder, must be so painful. My support goes to all who have, you're brave and I believe in you. đ
I relate to you in so many levels with food with your family traveling from one country to the next and being an outsider even though I was born in the US but I relate more with my German roots and to this day there's still a lot of hate and it's shown in many places
Going vegan is the best thing I ever did. Following people like High Carb Hannah, Chelsea & Alexandria on YouTube finally helped me to understand how to eat a whole foods plant based diet properly. The weight came off easily without working out all the time, and still enjoying what I ate and feeling completely satisfied.
i think i might have a binge eating disorder, iâve displayed symptoms since before i can remember but never severely due to being poor and not having much food so iâm not sure. i donât really know what to do about it
iâm donât or am going to shame vegan people but god made animals for humans to consume if everyone went vegan the animals would start over growing which would eventually k!ll us bc they would damage trees which would leave us less and less oxygen until itâs none there will be less space for us to live. just keep this in mind before you go vegan
I went vegetarian and it honestly didn't change my eating disorder at all. I still struggle to eat proper amounts, I still hate myself for eating anything I like, I still eat things I know I shouldn't. The real difference I've seen is in my anxiety around textures. So much of that stemmed from a fear of undercooked meat and not eating meat has actually reduced that anxiety. Occasionally I burn my tofu scramble because it "just didn't seem cooked enough" but mostly I do feel better. It takes the edge off things.
The biggest knife in my back will always be from me. I nearly killed myself with my ED. Even now, as I struggle every day to eat more than a few bites at a time, I hate myself for not being able to do what I KNOW is good for me. I lost an incredibly significant amount of body weight and I was hospitalized. Iâm still recovering, and some parts of me never will. My body will never be able to handle the cold, or humidity. Iâll never be able to stomach large portions without feeling sick. My hair will always be a little thinner. My joints with always be worse than most. But through everything- I still have my body. I still find ways to eat. That is what my recovery looks like. Gaining just a little bit of my weight back. Seeing just a few less bones so clearly. Having dry eyes when I see food. Recovery fucking sucks. It hurts. Itâs painful. You will overeat and you will get sick. You will hate yourself for eating. You will hate the way you canât see certain bones as much anymore. Youâll hate the way your face has a little more color, and is a little less sunken. But one day, you stop seeing it that way. You start being proud of yourself for being able to eat, even if itâs just a little bit. You become happier with your bones being less visible. You look in the mirror and you will one day get to feel, maybe not confident, maybe not beautiful, maybe not happy, but content. You become happy with the slight rose in your cheeks again. You realize you look more awake now that your eyes have a shimmer in them once again. If you are struggling with an ED, there is a light. There is a way to push through and become healthier. Does that burger make you want to throw up? Have a carrot. Just one. If that felt okay, have another. If you are tempted to buy a donut from a gas station, do it. You donât even have to finish it. Take a bite. Only one. Can you do it again? Good. Iâm proud of you. Every bite you take is a step in the right direction. I believe in you, even if you do not. You deserve to eat. The hardest part of recovery is reminding yourself that on the days where you just canât finish even a snack, those one or two bites you took is enough. YOU are enough. You deserve love, you deserve food, you deserve to be healthy. My hardest obstacle was trying to remember that I didnât need to take it one meal at a time. I need to take it one bite at a time. You will recover. I truly believe in you. Iâm so proud of you for trying.
God I love meat
too bad going vegan isn't actually better for you, your body, OR the planet
Your parents didn't come all the way from Korea to America so you become vegan.
A gift to all vegans:
https://youtube.com/shorts/QSuTGVHWGOc?feature=share
Enjoy
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I love making food but I hate eating it, I've looked at food and hated myself for it, I've been criticized by my mother about my weight for years, I wear oversized hoodies, my mother hated that so she would tell me to take them off, then proceeded to call me fat and that I needed to lose weight, I will never forgive her for that but I've learned to not listen to her and be happy with myself, I have a long way till I can be confident with my weight or my clothes but I'm working on it and knowing that I'm not alone, somehow makes it a little bit easier. For anybody who is reading this, you are the most beautiful/handsome person, do not listen to people who put u down, they do not deserve the attention. Thank you got reading.đ¤
Is she making veganâŚmilk? Whatever it is I want the recipe!đ¤Łđ¤Ł
I remember the first time i felt fat was when i was 4 and i began taking things seriously when i was around 8. I'd always been told that i was so big– looking back now though, i really wasnt. I come from a country where most people are kinda small anyways so by their standard i was "fat"— but regardless of all that, id always been very self- conscious of my image and evrr since then, i'd always thought abt every bite i took thinking that id be the only one gaining weight while everyone else would be fine because thats just thr way things are.
Now that im a bit morr aware of these lines of thoughts, im starting to improve a bit. I dont dislike myself as much anymore and im trying to ig "fix" my relationship with food?
I frequently lose and gain weight rapidly because of my autoimmine conditions– I hate hate HATE it when people compliment me for losing weight.
I remember when I would be forced to eat by my father and so during school breaks where he would be at work and let's us make our own dinners I just wouldn't eat for days because I told myself I didn't deserve it until my sister would make me eat. I always thought she was just being mean and antagonizing me but when I learned what an e.d was I started to become more close to her
Iâm sorry but when I saw ED, I immediately thought Erectile Dysfunction đ¤Ł
Is being vegetarian good enough�
Iâm twelve years old and Iâve been struggling with food for as long as I can remember. My brother could eat anything and everything but he was always and is still always skinny. Im too scared to look at my weight on a scale and I feel horrible when I eat. I hate my body and I hate that I hate it. I feel guilty for eating too much but then I feel guilty when I donât eat.
I relate to it all. I am a food, and eating addict.
I was sick for 2 yrs, I felt like I was dying everyday. It was like I had the stomach flu for two year straight. I lost 60lbs, I kid you not, several people have said âwell at least thereâs thatâ đł Id really rather be fat than feel like I was literally on my death bed.
I don't have e.d.but due to medical problems(gallbladder disease,gallstones) i had to change my diet.had my gallbladder removed 3 years and change ago.kept up the diet change.hubby and i.are about 70% plant based.we do eat dairy,but limited amounts.limited processed processed foods.
Very limited sugars.
I have a binge ED, I always feel grossed out and disgusted afterwards, It makes me wanna starve myself, I feel really gross sometime đ
This is the difference between people like âthe vegan teacherâ looking at other peoples videos and telling them that their âbadâ or â wrongâ for their dietary choices. The way the Vegan Teacher acts, telling people what to eat is wrong in so many ways. For example, itâs NOT okay to make a video about âif it was good or badâ that 100âs of people died in 9/11 just because their were vegan or not. You should not shame people just because of what they choose to eat. That Korean Vegan, talks about her personal feelings, opinions, and experiences that she has been through or has. She talks about how being vegan changed her life, not talking about others dietary choices or just telling people that their âwrongâ or âdisgustingâ. That Korean teacher doesnât try to force people to be vegan by likes on a dumb video. She just talks about her feelings, experiences, opinions, and unique culture in her Korean food. She make videos about vegan substitutes. That Korean vegan doesnât need to make some silly songs about being vegan, because she can just talk about being vegan in a nice and encouraging way instead of trying to force it down on someone. Thank you that Korean vegan. This world NEEDS more people like you that can talk about serious topics in ways that arenât forceful or mean. I greatly appreciate how you talk about serious topics in a nice way.đâĽď¸
âBeing a vegan makes it ok that Iâm disgustingâ. Wow now I understand why so many vegans are so hateful towards others, theyâre literally struggling to hold themselves together.
probably just seeing a therapist for a simple start???
FfffffffffâŚ. That last line hit me hard.
Damn, this makes me realise how lucky I am to have never experienced what it is to have eating disorder, must be so painful. My support goes to all who have, you're brave and I believe in you. đ
I relate to you in so many levels with food with your family traveling from one country to the next and being an outsider even though I was born in the US but I relate more with my German roots and to this day there's still a lot of hate and it's shown in many places
I'm a foodie and it shows…oh well đ
Resonates so deeply with me. Your voice is so soothing and stories so inspiring
Going vegan is the best thing I ever did. Following people like High Carb Hannah, Chelsea & Alexandria on YouTube finally helped me to understand how to eat a whole foods plant based diet properly. The weight came off easily without working out all the time, and still enjoying what I ate and feeling completely satisfied.
The funny thing when I lived in a developing country is that nobody talks/mentions or I hear nothing about eating disorder .
So awesome you made improvements with your erectile dysfunction.
Your voice sounds like one of the Tomo narrator's.
Can anyone advise as to what the music track is in the background? It's beautiful.
I originally thought the ED stood for erectile dysfunction. Geez đ
Veganism is slow degeneration into starvation, malnourishment and death.
Yo I got so confused because I thought it was the other Edđ
Wow, after seeing the comments— I'm not self diagnosing— I think JUST THINK i have ED without realizing skdnskdjksks
i think i might have a binge eating disorder, iâve displayed symptoms since before i can remember but never severely due to being poor and not having much food so iâm not sure. i donât really know what to do about it
Food is a girl's Best friend
Really tell myself I'm fat I try to make other people feel happy and not insecure so really I'm the one that needs help
iâm donât or am going to shame vegan people but god made animals for humans to consume if everyone went vegan the animals would start over growing which would eventually k!ll us bc they would damage trees which would leave us less and less oxygen until itâs none there will be less space for us to live. just keep this in mind before you go vegan
I went vegetarian and it honestly didn't change my eating disorder at all. I still struggle to eat proper amounts, I still hate myself for eating anything I like, I still eat things I know I shouldn't. The real difference I've seen is in my anxiety around textures. So much of that stemmed from a fear of undercooked meat and not eating meat has actually reduced that anxiety. Occasionally I burn my tofu scramble because it "just didn't seem cooked enough" but mostly I do feel better. It takes the edge off things.
What is the background song?
The biggest knife in my back will always be from me. I nearly killed myself with my ED. Even now, as I struggle every day to eat more than a few bites at a time, I hate myself for not being able to do what I KNOW is good for me. I lost an incredibly significant amount of body weight and I was hospitalized. Iâm still recovering, and some parts of me never will. My body will never be able to handle the cold, or humidity. Iâll never be able to stomach large portions without feeling sick. My hair will always be a little thinner. My joints with always be worse than most. But through everything- I still have my body. I still find ways to eat. That is what my recovery looks like. Gaining just a little bit of my weight back. Seeing just a few less bones so clearly. Having dry eyes when I see food. Recovery fucking sucks. It hurts. Itâs painful. You will overeat and you will get sick. You will hate yourself for eating. You will hate the way you canât see certain bones as much anymore. Youâll hate the way your face has a little more color, and is a little less sunken. But one day, you stop seeing it that way. You start being proud of yourself for being able to eat, even if itâs just a little bit. You become happier with your bones being less visible. You look in the mirror and you will one day get to feel, maybe not confident, maybe not beautiful, maybe not happy, but content. You become happy with the slight rose in your cheeks again. You realize you look more awake now that your eyes have a shimmer in them once again. If you are struggling with an ED, there is a light. There is a way to push through and become healthier. Does that burger make you want to throw up? Have a carrot. Just one. If that felt okay, have another. If you are tempted to buy a donut from a gas station, do it. You donât even have to finish it. Take a bite. Only one. Can you do it again? Good. Iâm proud of you. Every bite you take is a step in the right direction. I believe in you, even if you do not. You deserve to eat. The hardest part of recovery is reminding yourself that on the days where you just canât finish even a snack, those one or two bites you took is enough. YOU are enough. You deserve love, you deserve food, you deserve to be healthy. My hardest obstacle was trying to remember that I didnât need to take it one meal at a time. I need to take it one bite at a time. You will recover. I truly believe in you. Iâm so proud of you for trying.
I need to know the name of this song. I used to play it on the piano years ago and itâs killing me I canât remember!!!